I used to long to revel in your….
Looking at me
Looking at me not from the outside
But your inside looking at my inside
I used to long to revel in….
Your praise of me
Your smiles at me
Your wanting to contact me first
With the things that resonated deep inside you
to echo things resonating deep inside me.
I used to….
want to know how to connect the dots in your every thought,
Enjoy witnessing you connect the dots in my head
Through several thought patterns
Like geometrical designs
But the geometry in my mind couldn’t withstand your compasses and protractors
You grew tired as I sought to explore every inch of every angle of every complex thought
Some at 60 degrees. some at 30 degrees
After so many yous I realized
My Creator was the ultimate mathematical master and I had to give him praise.
He was the one to create my mind like this
Whether or not you would run away from it
He could understand perfectly and without hesitation all the twists and turns and angles of my mind and my heart
And he didn’t even need a protractor or a compass to understand her as
He even created the means for which geometry sets were available!
So thought I miss your connections of my dots
And tho I miss trying to be the calculator of the geometrical complexities inside your head
I will make every effort to lose my geometry set and run from yours
And make my way back, though over hills and valleys to the One who created me.