It is

there in my face

With access and dial up but I cant have


enchants me

I want it but

am obligated not to indulge

in ½ way, ¼ way or any other way

flesh killed daily means action killed daily

but flesh killed has never meant desires killed

hunger vs obligation

or is it a sacrifice?

Sacrifice for what?

You sacrifice savings to get a car or downplays on a house.

You sacrifice cake to lose weight.

What’s my sacrifice for?

Eternal gain the Bible says.

Deferred or no gratification… order to gain someday.

Obviously this isn’t to make me happy.

However, happiness…may not be a gain